Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Swimmingly
On Monday when I left my door to head to work, I had no idea it had even been raining, let alone flooding. It wasn't until I heard the radio that I realized what was going on. My area was totally and completely (Thank the Lord) unaffected. My commute had no rain or flood waters or anything. When I arrived at work...I found out how badly this rain had affected many. Douglas and Cobb counties (the more expensive areas - well they have some big houses there!) are basically shut down. There's really no way in or out of those and houses and schools are flooded.
HERE is a slideshow featuring much of the damage. Really puts things into perspective....
I am saddened because there have been around 10 deaths- many of which were caused by people trying to return home from work and either not realizing that the roads were flooded and drowning or trying to drive through and drowning. Work is NEVER that important people- the Govenor has declared a State-of-Emergency and has urged people from the worst-hit areas to stay home. Take a few days off- your bosses cannot fire you and if they do a suit is in order ...
The first video is a compilation of news reports on the flooding....
The next video is of Six Flags over Georgia where I was planning to go Sunday.
Check out that slide show linked above to get a feel of what is really going on... I did not realize how bad the situation was until I looked at it....
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Wednesday, September 16, 2009
When Living Costs Too Much
Now…this is not entirely true. I studied the Inuit (part of my Anthropological studies) and the elders were greatly revered for their oral history. But…there are many cases of suicide or assisted suicides on record. There was even a spoken law in which – if someone asked 3 times to die – their wish had to be granted. It was a harsh area to live in and an extra mouth but little food meant that the group could die as a whole…
As you can see above…this post will be about death…but to be a little more precise- end-of life-care. If we want to be totally blunt…our medical advances have made it possible for us to continue living well past when we should and living with things that would have killed our “lesser” ancestors in the past. People used to die from COLDS and MEASLES! Now-a-days those are fairly common and pose no real threat. Hell…people (Hi Magic Johnson) are living for decades with the virus that is supposed to be the end-all. Science is great….but…what about nature?
There used to be an ebb and flow to this type of thing. Babies are born and grow up. They have babies of their own…then the older generation has surpassed its usefulness and they pass. This struck me in Biology when my teacher bluntly said Once you have kids and get them to the point where they are self-sufficient you are no longer of use to nature. Jaws dropped but then he further explained that nature intended us to procreate similar to the other animals and to continue our species…nothing more…nothing less. Nature used to be able to take care of these things. The older members of the flock couldn’t compete for resources and mates or would get injured/sick and die. This was the case with the Neanderthals (to give them a blanket name) as well and even persisted into the dark ages. With advances in medicine came wonderful things- we could combat these plagues and diseases- but also very terrible things. Food/resource shortage, over-crowding, and stripping the natural areas caused their own problems – namely...well...famines and new diseases.
I often wonder what I’m going to be like when I’m elderly. Am I going to be one of those go-getters who’s still moving and shaking at age 80 or am I going to be sickly and bed-ridden? Are my children going to have to come to help me bathe or help me to simply live my life? Will I have to have a 24-hour nurse? I see people strapped to an oxygen tank or confined to a bed for the rest of their lives. There are people who are essentially vegetables (not just the elderly of course…) who can never move again, can NEVER come off of their medicines or machines, lest they will die. Some can’t even be considered….alive…technically. There’s got to be some point when you’re taking 15 medicines 3 times a day and an additional 10 to combat the negative effects of those medicines, where you start to realize that it is more work to live than it should be. When you can no longer function (and I mean life functions – eat, breathe, expel waste) without the assistance of others…. I personally would not want to be that way…and certainly would not want that financial, emotional, and mental burden to fall on my family members and children. I would rather die than be bed-ridden and semi-conscious for the rest of my life.
Here is an article I was reading about end-of-life care. Its mostly about the costs associated with it ala Obama’s universal medical plan and cost cutting but I’m curious- what do you think about end-of-life care as a whole?? I’m not advocating killing off the elderly but, at what point do you say ‘this is too much’?
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Tuesday, September 15, 2009
OMG...Just..........No........WTF
Fair warning- the video is LOUD and starts immediately upon opening the page (the "Read More" tab) so...turn your sound down!!!!
Is anyone else disturbed?
Surprisingly enough... while I was disturbed by the video itself and the consequences of such actions... I was also concerned (not surprised of course) about the calls that came in concerning it. "In places like Jamaica and Africa...this is common" was a comment from a listener. This video is clearly taken in a Spanish Speaking country (you could even hear that over the radio as they played it...) but, of course, it goes back to hypersexual black people...
Its not about RACE people - its about KIDS being sexualized at such young ages... get your minds right...
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Sunday, September 13, 2009
Kanye stays running his mouth...
he gets kicked out
he gets boo'd
he'll still sell crazy #s but i will be hard pressed to respect him beyond today
But what a GREAT move by Beyonce giving Taylor Swift her moment back!
(altho Taylor could have bared to thank Beyonce, too...young people these days)
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Kanye West Interrupts Taylor Swift at the VMAs!
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Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Meh
I apologize for the lack of a post last week and the shortened post for today- I have been, as all of our bloggers are currently, stacking my chips and working on getting some other opportunities together. Been working my ass off at work and trying to figure out what the hell I'm going to do for the next few months.
Work has been so crazy lately- when it rains...it pours! New policies have been enacted which has shifted more burden on the people in my position. While that's going on...a Partner, whom I enjoy working under and am learning a lot from, has decided to give me more responsibilities...something I can't and don't want to say no to... Remember...this is all going to look great on my resume. What this means is...more work, more hours, and less 'surfing the net time'.
I'm also getting together my own law school apps so that I can be just like our buddy Guy- overwhelmed and working toward the future. Hopefully I can get off my ass and get these apps in Early Decision so I'll know soon where I'm going to end up IF I manage to get in anywhere. I've been speaking to a ton of people, normal people like me...not ones like Guy who practically aced the LSAT (hate you) who say that they didn't get in on their first set of apps and had to wait a year. Oh God....that CANNOT happen. Nervewrecking....
This realization that I might not get in to the places I want to go (and the realization that some schools cost like $70,000 a year...) has made me start looking less at the Ivies and more at state and other schools. I've been taking more factors into consideration- what schools are best based on what I want to study? What interesting other courses are offered (Should have looked at that for undergrad...)? Where would I want to live/intern/practice law? Where would be CHEAP but still give a great education? I will most likely end up in a Georgia or NC school due to the fact that I'd get In-State Tuition because I have lived/currently live in those places. We'll see. Shifting away from that name thing and more towards practicality....
Anyway- just wanted to touch base! Got a lot to do!
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Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Internet Withdrawal - I'm Scared o_O
What am I going to do?
Funny thing is, this will probably be the most productive night I've had in a really long time. I'll actually have time and no distractions from cleaning, putting things in drawers, writing lyrics, and more. So why am I dreading this experience? I'm steadily looking at my battery meter and the fear of the unknown is growing and GROWING!
Dang, how attached have I - have we - become to these random buttons and screens. I can't believe I'm to the point where 5 waking hours without internet communication is a fearful...maybe not fearful...but EXTREMELY undesirable experience. *T minus 12 minutes* There was a time just over 6 years ago when I was online by choice for all of 2 hours on an "excessive" night! I can hear the AOL phone dialing now *sigh*
I'm trying to get my Twitter fix for the night now. Fortunately I can check email on my phone...I'll probably do that a good 7 times. SMH @ ME! I'm addicted to Internet connection. I wonder if I'll experience any side effects from my withdrawal. Hmm:
-Restful night
-Energized for tomorrow
-Eat and what an entertaining show
-Do something music related tonight (write, practice piano, a *YOU ARE RUNNING ON RESERVE BATTERY POWER - 0:09 minutes*
Oh well! Let me get off this thing and accept my fate. I have to make my way back to Twitter for a few more minutes and then it's Blackout time. Keep me in your prayers, haha.
Be Well,
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Monday, August 31, 2009
*Highlights* - TREY SONGZ is READY!!!
Enjoy the video to Successful featuring Drake, a fan favorite on the album!
Album review coming soon!
Saturday, August 29, 2009
My Job and Me... REALLY? A JOB?!
On Monday of this past week I began working as an intern for a Music licensing and branding firm in NY. This firm has the HOOK UP, and has placed and licensed music for some of the biggest commercials and TV spots out there. Obviously, me being a music lover, I'm more that ecstatic to have such a role, and the fact that it will likely evolve into a full-time position makes it even better.
My duties include maintaining the music library, reaching out to and scouting new talent to bring on board, and conversing with major advertisers and managers about partnerships - Could this be more ideal for me!? Well, yes, it could be. It'd be awesome to receive a full salary and benefits, BUT I can't and won't complain. I'm getting my lunches paid for, all my travel is covered by the company, I get a weekly monetary stipend, and I get free entry to a lot of the exclusive music events in and around the city.
There are definitely issues with the company, and it is not as perfect as it sounds; however, I have faith that this is happening for a reason, and I am going to fulfill my duties with 200% of my ability. I'm already the CEO's "go-to" person, and he's entrusted me with a TON of secrets concerning his personal and business drama. I don't care. I'm taking this experience and running with it. At the very least, my foot is in the door at a very reputable music institution, and my boss will likely write me an amazing recommendation.
In addition to this good news, I've also been doing LOTS of public showcases and shoving my fears to the side. I've sung at open mics 3 times in the past two weeks, and just yesterday I opened up for a 3-act comedy set in NJ. The audience loved me, and I was extremely pleased with my sound and comfort on stage. I'll be singing again publicly either Sunday or Monday, so I'll continue giving you all updates.
All I can do is thank God for patience and trust that he is guiding me even when I feel like I'm lost in the dark.
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Thursday, August 27, 2009
A heartbreaking work of super briefing genius
The last seven days have been the most difficult, most humbling string of incoherent hours of my life. I have never been more tired or more sore or more weepy or more terrified or more joyous. I will soon write a post dedicated specifically to what happened during Legal Research and Writing, but right now I'm just concentrating on making it hour to hour. I will say that I had really low expectations for law school, meaning I thought it was going to be a horrific, gory experience, and I know that it is for many law students, but it is because of those low expectations that I can actually sit here seven days later and say that orientation was a somewhat pleasant, perfectly manageable process. The lesson to be learned from this is, of course, to aim low in life and be thrilled when the worst doesn't happen. I am a new law student and I'm already doling out superficially useful advice that turns out not to be applicable to anything.
What hasn't been perfectly manageable, however, is the inhumane aftermath of orientation that no one really talks about. Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse -- worse than the case briefing assignment, the 5 pound books, the bleeding, the abdominal contractions and cramps, the body-contorting fatigue -- I realized this morning that I haven't been reading my other, OTHER set of textbooks and am now in the library at 9pm on a Saturday.
Here is where talk of law school really kicks in.
Right now I'm looking at The Law of Civil Procedure, Contract Law and Theory, and Cases and Materials on Torts along with their corresponding E&Es. The thing about E&Es is that they're supposed to make the material easy to process, and for normal people who retain information normally, E&E's may actually make material simple and easy to understand. I have never processed information normally, and all the drinking I did during undergrad has basically made it so that my body cannot EVER retain information again, and the E&Es just make it so the law isn't very impossible, just marginally impossible. I spent about 8 hours today on 30 pages of material, and all the studying techniques I learned during undergrad became laughably inept as I screamed and screamed for mercy.
If you don't get the reference, shame on you.
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Tuesday, August 25, 2009
*Highlights* - Are You READY?!
Five of the seventeen tracks have already been released either on the radio or his free download-only album, Anticipation, that I previously reviewed. LOL ;) was leaked but it seems to be a hit on the radio despite foiled plans of marketing the song! Definitely a great follow up to In Ya Phone. Both are ringtone and summer ready. The other 12 little snippets are emotional and mental teases. SWOON worthy from every angle whether you're looking for the sexy player that wants to put it on you or for the sensitive lover that appreciates and misses every part of who you are. Swoon? Yes. Definitely swoon.
Even without me fawning over him 24/7, Trey Songz proves himself again and again to everyone that he is a great singer songwriter. There is no need for the slash because he not either or, rather he is both. He displays on this album immense maturity in both arenas. You also get to experience both tried & true, seasoned producers and up and coming younger producers that all come to the table with a touch of the classics and an arsenal of fresh new sounds for a marriage of audio pleasures that titillate both the fans and the general market. You should definitely check out his album which is out a day earlier than planned to make the Grammy nomination deadline. I forsee a golden phonograph on his mantel very soon.
How psyched I am about this album:
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Saturday, August 22, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
Looking Ahead
Avatar:
Story: An injured Marine named Jake Sully travels to a forest-like planet named Pandora to recieve a new body: that of a human-Na'vi (Pandora's inhabitants) hybrid. The Na'vi are blue with tails and stand about 9 feet tall. They are considered primitive but, unbeknownst to humans, are actually more advanced. The Na'vi's land is being encroached upon by the humans and Jake, in his quest for a healthy body, has unwittingly become a part of that. War ensues...
This movie is touted to be the future of movies: effortlessly combining 3D graphics and new filming techniques. I can't wait until it comes out!
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Another film, Inglorious Basterds, has been making headway lately as an interesting differing view of the discord between the Nazi's and the Jews... it is Tarantino's vision of what should have occurred...
He has even somehow managed to make a lovable Nazi character... interesting...
Tarantino is a bit of a genius...the film centers (so it seems) around a premiere of a Nazi propaganda film set to inspire the soldiers. The trailer for this film has actually been released (Viral Marketing at its finest!) and is garnering much hype (and discontent...):
Looking forward to finding some time to catch these...if you get 'em first shoot me a review in the comments!
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Thursday, August 20, 2009
News Reel
some horrid
some sports
some entertainment
some science
all that have some kinda !!! value
you know how i roll
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WHAT THE FFFFFFFFFF is WRONG with kids today?! No seriously. There is something SOCIALLY wrong here. VERY wrong. That poor child they attacked is scarred for life. It would be a miracle if he can have a normal rest of his childhood and adolescence and move onto healthy relationships as an adult. How did they even come up with something so horrendous to do to these people?! What could the victims have possibly done to deserve this torture?! How F'd up do you have to be to think of this atrocity and then exocute it? I just don't understand.
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FIRST ASIAN TO WIN THE PGA CHAMPIONSHIPS!!!
SOMEONE BEAT THE GREAT TIGER WOODS AT THE PGA CHAMPIONSHIPS!!!
That's some insanely happy news! Not that someone beat one of the few minorities in the golf arena, but that more Asians are making a name for themselves in the public arena. WOOH!
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More sports news: You may have been following the Plaxico Burress legal drama. The man shot himself in the leg. The same leg that carried the rest of his athletic body to the touchdown zone to help the NY Giants win the Superbowl two years ago. And for his own stupidity, he gets TWENTY MONTHS IN JAIL!!! People have gotten off easier for more. LOTS of people are outraged at this heavy sentence. I'm also not so sure 20 months is the answer...
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Take a look at THIS:
NOM NOM NOM
Can we get a few of these in the NYC Subway tunnels? Hahaha Seriously.
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How many of you have heard Jay-Z's Run This Town (feat. Rihanna and Kanye West)?
How many of you have been waiting on a hard hitting video to go with it?
Apparently Germany and the UK didn't have to wait too long because it has already premiered over there while us silly Americans are still waiting. So, I bring this to you...a LINK...because I don't know how to rip rando vids from sites yet. Sorry. Until I figure it out, enjoy the link.
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AND...for you travelers... We all know about the SUPER DUPER FAST bullet train in Shanghai that runs...ONLY in Shanghai. It's so expensive that locals generally don't use it to get themselves to the airport. Only gung-ho foreign travelers like me take it. The only reason the Chinese government keeps it running is to show everyone else their accomplishment. Well NOW there is one that is more practical and probably just as fast. This one takes you between SHANGHAI and BEIJING. Lots of business people and the ilk would find great use out of this one. This 220 mi/hr bullet train is the newest show-off project. Can't wait!
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That's all for now folks. Watch. Click. Read. Ruminate. Comment.
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Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Hoarding and Me
I only was able to catch parts of it...and the link to watch the entire episode isn't working on A&E's site but wow...riveting. You usually only see people who hoard trash and junk...I have never seen one with food. My mother caught the whole episode and relayed it to my in gritty details. The more I listened...the more fearful I got.
Why? I’m bad with food… I have too many food-based fears and, at the same time, I take too many risks when it comes to it. This is gross…but…I have cut mold off of cheese and bread and eaten the rest… With other foods though, fruit in particular, if there is a soft spot…I can’t bring myself to eat it or if I’ve had it more than three days (and I always buy in bulk mind you), I also can’t eat it. There really is no reason ever for me to buy milk…I never use it! But every time I go to the store…I buy some.
That being said…I never considered myself a hoarder per se. After watching the show, however, there may be some early signs I need to watch for. I’m sure I’ve mentioned in the past that I’m a huge fan of the Intervention and Obsessed (which is relatively new to the game) shows based on Addition and OCD. Well…hoarding is a form of OCD as well but is probably one of the more common and possibly dangerous OCD’s evidenced here and here (careful with the second one...you may puke).
I see a lot of myself in this woman, although mine hasn’t become dangerous or unhealthy and I don’t have an attachment to the food; I CAN and WILL throw it away when it becomes inconvenient. But…still…signs are there. I have let fruit rot in the fridge. When it starts to mold, I become sickened by it and can’t eat anything in the fridge. I also…can’t bring myself to touch it, so for days at a time, I will have mini-panics if I have to open the fridge for any reason. When it gets to be disgusting enough…I’ll finally bring myself to throw it away. More often than not, however, someone else has already done that. If we were to open my freezer…half of the meat in there has intense freezer burn… I frequent Sam’s club and buy chicken and steak in bulk (steak is nicely priced there!) but then I wont want those things…so I never actually eat them. Its one of those “shopped when I was hungry” kinds of things. My hoarding is more pricy than anything.
At least I have taken step one and realized it and now know that I can do things to combat it before it gets out of control:
1) Go shopping every two or three days. When I finally strike out on my own…I’m going to do my best to live near a farmer’s market and/or a grocery store- like within walking distance. That way I won’t have the issues I have with fruits because I’ll always know they’re fresh.
2) Shop with recipes in mind. My problem is that I’ll go with like 12 or 13 recipes but I’ll only actually do like 2 of them and not the rest because my tastes have changed. If I shop every two or three days, I’ll be more likely to still want to eat that stuff.
3) Set a budget. Another issue I have is…buying too much food. I’ll tweak recipes (a little extra meat…three or four more tomatoes) to fit what I THINK i’ll need and it always turns out to be more. So…if I’m shopping for two or three days…but 4 chicken breasts rather than a pack of 12. Sounds like a lot less wasted meat already!
4) If all else fails – live with ravenous teenage/college boys. They’ll eat any and everything. I’ll never have food!
Keep you updated!
Drake Gay?
Real post coming shortly but....thought I'd drop this little diddy to wake ya up. You guys seem to have a love/hate relationship with this guy here. More fuel to the fire!
Thanks Bossip (obviously...covering half the damn pic up) for the heads up!
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Tuesday, August 18, 2009
SUMMER IS DONE!!!
What does that mean? Mad scramble for a real job. EEP! Holla atcha girl if you know ANYTHING in the NYC area =) Thanks for lookin out!
I'm a free agent!!! But bills are piling up. You know how it is. Will work to get out of the house.
Siigh but yea. Summer is done. I've more or less taught a whole year's curriculum in 6 weeks. 6 weeks. 33 days. So we didn't do a LOT of reinforcing of the information and I couldn't help every child individually but I think I covered a lot and they learned a lot considering the time constraint. I wonder how it is possible that teachers have 6 times as much time with these kids and most don't seem to be doing THAT much more than what I have with them!
AGHHHHHHH what's going ON?!
I'm no expert, obviously. But I've spoken to the licensed public school teachers that teach with me at the tutoring center and I've spoken to my boss who has seen a decade's worth of kids come and go at her company. The kids seem to start at lower and lower reading and math levels. The kids seem increasingly less able to do any critical thinking. Don't get me wrong. It's not like bright kids aren't still out there. They blow us away and blow the rest of the class out of the water. But they are so few and far in between.
It seems old school methods and curricula worked. Then for whatever reasons (I can take a stab at a few but I won't) the school system decides that we need to have one big ol' cookie cutter method that aims at personalizing education to each child. But in the end, children get lost in the shuffle because a teacher can only do so much for each individual child one at a time. It's a good theory. But like communism, just doesn't work so well in reality.
All this griping about the underachieving kids being lost in the shuffle, but what about the kids that are at the tops of the class? Does anyone really pay attention to them anymore? Take a look at this vid my best friend made at work:
Fun Fact Friday! - Waiting.... from Education Gadfly on Vimeo.
By the way, all the smarty pants play-doh kid did that put itself ahead of the class was FACE THE RIGHT WAY!!! LOL did anyone else notice the underachievers weren't facing forward? How true is that in real life? Very much mirrored in a real classroom. HAHAHA
Not to pat myself on the back, but I was one of those kids. I didn't always feel like I was being held back because my mom always pushed me to my limits with outside tutoring that taught way beyond the regular school curriculum. But there were many times in elementary and middle school where I felt the homework and classwork (at least for math) was SO mundane and frustratingly slow.
That was then. It seems it's worse now. What can we do to promote and provide top notch education for EVERYONE in the class?
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Monday, August 17, 2009
Chew on This: Rethinking Your Job Search
STOP IT!!
Applying online can actually HURT your job search!!! According to this article, Search Engine Marketing only makes up 3% of hires!
What were the most effective methods of getting hired? Referrals and face-to-face interactions/networking!
"Online can be a great starting point, but that face-to-face communication has to take place. Someone has to know about you, and know your story. I like to say it's not who you know, but who knows you."
Employers particularly like hiring via their current employees; Ever wonder why no matter WHERE you're applying (McDonald's included) there is always a line asking if you know someone who is currently employed there? Now you know...
This bias in favor of personal referral is huge[...]About one-third makes a hire for every four referrals, another third makes a hire for every 10 referrals. So instead of competing with hundreds of candidates, most of those with a personal connection are competing with a handful!
Using technology in your job search isn't all bad though!
Anyone can marry online and offline resources to maximum effect, says Crispin. "With Facebook, LinkedIn, my college alumni association, and my professional associations like SHRM, which has a member directory, there's no company I can't get an employee referral to inside of an hour." Current employees win kudos for referring a new hire, so as long as a candidate is sane and presentable, they're usually willing to do it.
Use your internet skillz wisely! Set up a networking coffee meeting with that graduate two or three years older than you through myspace. Tweet with a current employee! Do what it takes but get that personal reference!
Good luck readers! Hope this helps!
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Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Leave Your F*cking Phone On
Man backpacks through Europe for 2 weeks...girlfriend FORGETS he's leaving...girlfriends many attempts to get in touch with him during his trip!
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Really busy at work today (too busy to make a real post) so I'll leave you with this diddy for today. Planning on posting on the coonery of Real Housewives of Atlanta shortly (I will be doing extensive research and forcing myself to sit through the train-wreck). :)
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Monday, August 10, 2009
Baggage
Is it strange that emotional baggage can become a crutch? The person I feud with the most just came to me asking me to put everything out on the table. I know, or suspect however, that if I divulged the reasons for my persistent bitterness & conflict, that person's world would come crashing down (...that is, if they actually listened to and received what I was saying).
I pray so often that our relationship would get better, but everyday I'm reminded of why I feel so negatively. Whether it's the cold past, the past fused with the present obliviousness, or the expectation that the future will be more of the same...I don't know. I just can't seem to get to where I need to be with this person - a positive place. And after years of being so internally angry, I actually fear what an open and positive relationship would be like. Bitterness has become my terrible comfort zone.
Well, I realized today that I hold the key to making our relationship rise or fail miserably. I have two options:
A) I lay all my baggage out for that person to see. They'll likely be so hurt and devastated by the reality, which is so obvious (and thus more damaging), that their spirit will be broken. But in the end, they'll know exactly what they need to change so that we can move forward. Essentially, my confession is the ignition to get our relationship moving...
B) I continue being an emotional martyr. Maybe I'm masochistic, but despite the intense residual disdain from the past (and present) experiences, I don't want to break down the person. Ultimately, I do care for them, and I don't believe I'm spiteful enough to knowingly cause them pain... no matter how temporary.
I could easily stall on choosing my path...except I can't. Because TIME is not on anyone's side. You never know what the next second holds, and a moment's delay could mean a lifetime of regret.
What do I do? The person I call myself sparing is telling me I'm "torturing" them. They say they can and want to take the brutal truth, but who's to say they really can?
It's true when they say all good things have a price. If only I could make the right choice.
Be well,
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Sunday, August 9, 2009
*Highlights* Lady Gaga's Penis
I have to say... I have bought into all of the hype. I think her songs are catchy (isn't that all it takes these days?) though I wouldnt venture too far to say that this girl is an amazing singer. Nice beats...silly songs...over-the-top videos....lesbian hype...
Then...there's the crazy outfits....
The internet is abuzz with the supposed leaking of parts of an interview in which she mentions actually being a hermaphrodite (no source is ever given and no article has come out yet...you be the judge).
"It's not something that I'm ashamed of, just isn't something that I go around telling everyone. Yes. I have both male and female genitalia, but I consider myself a female. It's just a little bit of a penis and really doesn't interfere much with my life."
Is this all a ploy to sell more records? Rumors have been swirling for months that she is a transsexual (man hands...Adam's apple...) so is this just our minds playing trick on us? Or did she do this on purpose to keep us guessing? I mean...its clear she likes the attention and the mystery of "GaGa".
Thoughts?
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GI JOE & Teacups!
and
Food Review
later today!
Check out the other posts from this week past week while you wait! =)
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Miley Cyrus is a Bitch
I mean yes, the acting is disgustingly over the top terrible. Not just over the top, but over the top terrible. And disgustingly so. However, over the top was what kids respond to. Kids need to be overstimulated in order to elicit a response from them. But, no matter the quality of acting, they seem to get across these mini-lessons about being socially responsible. So overall, kids shows are wholesome.
The kids themselves though. The actors. The terrible terrible actors. Apparently they use that bad acting to thinly veil their naughtiness and idiocy behind the camera. Or in Miley Cyrus' case, in front of a camera, too. I guess the earlier you start off as an actor in front of the camera, the sooner you shit over your career behind it. Except, nothing seems to touch Miley Cyrus. She can pose half nude with her dad and she's still allowed to globally influence children. She can have an exposed underage teenage boob and her career is still going strong. She can offend 4 BILLION people, 60% OF THE WORLD, and she can still renew her show's contract, sell out concerts, and make a mean buck off of merchandising. WTF
I'm sure you've already heard about her CHINK pic scandal back in February of this year. Time heals most wounds. This one, I'm still steaming about. I still hate that she exists. If you don't know yet, Miley Cyrus took a picture with a bunch of her male friends. No, that's not the scandalous part. All of the non-Asian people in the picture, including the superstar, are all either squinting or pulling their eyes back. The lone Asian in the group (probably safe to say that he's the token) is straining to open his eyes wider than is natural for him. The ignorance. SMH
Then a LOOOOONG time passed with many people in an uproar before she attempted at an apology on her blog on her fansite that people have to PAY $30/month for to access. She said:
I've also been told there are some people upset about some pictures taken of me with friends making goofy faces! [So now 4 billion people have goofy faces. Look at your teeth.] Well, I'm sorry if those people looked at those pics and took them wrong and out of context! [Those people? What do you mean THOSE people?! I don't think there was a context where that could have been right.] In NO way was I making fun of any ethnicity! [Then what were you doing?] I was simply making a goofy face. [You were simply being a bitch.] When did that become newsworthy? [When you became a role model to young kids that don't know any better than to condemn you.] It seems someone is trying to make something out of nothing to me. [It's all your own doing. 4 billion people were offended.] If that would of [sic] been anyone else, it would of been overlooked! [No it wouldn't have.] I definitely feel like the press is trying to make me out as the new 'BAD GIRL'! [No. You're just a stupid bitch.] I feel like now that Britney is back on top of her game again, they need someone to pick on! [This has nothing to do with Britney. Again, all your own doing.] Lucky me! haha [This is funny to you?] Anyway, I just wanted to let you guys know what is on my heart. [Which would be no remorse, it seems] You guys know me and have been by my side every step of the way! [And now people should be extremely disappointed.] You guys know my heart and know the most important things to me are my friends, family, fans, and GOD! [They have nothing to do with this other than not stopping you from being a dumbass.] In NO WAY do I want to disappoint any of you! [But it happened nonetheless, didn't it?] But, when I have made mistakes in the past, I feel like I've owned up to them and apologized. [So why aren't you doing that now?] I really wish everyone would stop focusing on my personal life and get back to focusing on what I love! [You're in the limelight. You have no personal life. You made a movie about that.] Music and Acting! [You're not very good doing either and I don't know why you are this big.] Hopefully, I will be touring again this fall! [You will. You are untouchable. Untouchable bitch.] Yayy! =] [Yes. Smiley face. Dismiss the matter at hand.] It will be a nice change to be back out on the road again! [It would be a better change if you actually apologized. Empathy would do you some good, too.]
bexoxo blessings...Miley =) [I'm sure your fans have forgotten what this post was about. But yes, God be with everyone. Hugs. Kisses. of DEATH]
WHERE do I even start?!?! That wasn't an apology at all. So I guess people were hating on her for THAT so she put this out on the fansite:
I want to thank all of my fans for their support not only this week, but always! I really wanted to stress how sorry I am if the photo of me with my friends offended anyone. I have learned a valuable lesson from this and know that sometimes my actions can be unintentionally hurtful. I know everything is a part of GOD’s ultimate plan, and mistakes happen so that eventually I will become the woman he aspires me to be.
Peace and love, Miles
You know, that's STILL not a real apology. She's sorry IF the photo offended anyone?! IF?!??!!? She's not really sorry if she hasn't accepted the fact that people were indeed very offended. And she just excused herself of any wrongdoing because God planned it for her. Now, who can argue with GOD?!
You know what, call God up and we'll have a chat about THAT mistake of an existence. I really hope kids learn from better people. There are a plethora of those.
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Questionable
Comments? Concerns?
I'm uncomfortable with the gyrating and popping but overall...interesting...
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Oh Disney
Is it just me or are all the idols of our childhood CRAZY now? I mean...wow. It's not just Disney...Nickolodeon, CW...all of them have bred straight insanity! Pop culture train-wrecks are a product of their environment. Take a cute aspiring child actress/singer or heir of some sort and add constant attention and t.v. cameras and this is what you get...
LOL...ok...that's mean...but seriously...
Think about it. They are cute as a button on some show and for years are followed and loved. They are often robbed of their childhood (though many of them choose that and even enjoy the fame and fortune) and are forced to grow up and make their mistakes in the public eye. I will even give them some slack...I mean...I kissed boys when people thought I was too young. I was not always the sweet innocent little girl. I cursed sometimes, I took part in teasing of others... But...I mean...you are in the public eye! You need to tone that shit down. Think about it...YOU'RE AN ACTOR...YOU GET PAID TO BE SOMEONE ELSE... Do your dirt in the privacy of your own home (with no cameras around of course) and continue acting like the cute little one you are. Want to shed that sweet image? Pull a Daniel Radcliffe (Harry Potter) and do a nude play or play a drug addict in a movie... THEN you can be a bad girl/boy...just wait until your disney contract and your status as teen idol fade before you do!
Here is a nice gallery of some of the child stars of our day (and some current ones)... Peruse and enjoy!
Name: Destiny Hope "Miley" Cyrus
Network/Show: Disney, Hannah Montana
Worth: 3.5 Million
Inspirational attributes:
- Dating a 20 year old model at age 16 (*jealous!!*)
- Photo Below- Heralded (lol) by the Asian Community for her loving impression...
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Name: Mischa Anne Marsden Barton
Network/Show: Fox, The O.C.
Worth: ??
Inspirational attributes:
- Arrested on suspicion of DUI, possession of marijuana, and driving without a valid license on December 27, 2007
- Possibly (probably) Anorexic
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Names: Mary-Kate and Ashley Fuller Olsen
Network/Show: ABC, Full House
Worth: 100 Million
Inspirational attributes:
- Mary-Kate Caught up in Heath Ledger Death Scandal
- Mary-Kate Possibly Anorexic (I guess Ashley is pretty squeaky clean actually...)
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And finally, we have the symbol for child stars gone wrong...*drum-roll*
Name: Lindsay Dee Lohan
Network/Show: Disney, The Parent Trap (She obviously did other stuff after that...)
Worth: 7.5 Million
Inspirational attributes (Where to begin with this one?! She's Like all the others x 10!!):
- Many Car accidents- some caused by drinking/drugs
- Rehab for Alcoholism (always caught drinking!)
- Probably everything else!
- Anorexic off and on!!
One more for the road!
Disclaimer: Yes I know these women probably do great things (donate to charities etc) but come on... sometimes the bad outweighs the good!
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Disney - A Stripper's Tale
Go Lindsay!
Go Miley!
Go Vanessa! x2!
Since Disney loves producing our nation's next teen idols, I think it would be great if Disney's next flick was a documentary on the lives of its well-bred, corn-fed, underaged, singing and dancing talents. I mean look at the good Disney is doing! Because of this company's time tested program of isolation, exploitation, and expectation, "normal" children are being inspired to sing cute songs (Britney's "I'm a Slave"), act (Miley's acclaimed role as a young Asian girl), and dance (Lindsay's pole tumbling is 5 star apparently?).
Also, Disney's doing wonders for accelerating America's acceptance of very open, honest, and documented sexuality. Thanks to Disney child idols, the female anatomy is no longer a mystery to 6 year old boys. And forget what Mom always said about not walking "out the house without clean underwear on!" Heck, if our rich Disney idols have taught us anything, it's "why wear underwear in the first place?!"
Question: Was Melissa Joan Heart a Disney kid? If so, we've all seen what becomes of the ones who CHOOSE NOT to conform with Disney's strict regimen of lewd public behavior - their careers and social capital start plummeting fast. Thank goodness Christina Aguilera found the delicate balance between social decency (celebrity suicide) and Disney Rawness (Fame and fortune)!
Hmm, I guess...now that I think about it, this documentary would have an "X" rating. That may not work....no, probably not.
Well, fortunately we don't have to worry! Even without an official Disney documentary, we'll always have E! News, Entertainment Tonight, The Soup, Wendy Williams, and Chelsea Lately to keep us updated on the latest cultural trends inspired by Disney students and alums.
I wonder what the next wave/craze will be. Since leaked nude cell phone pics and exposed VJs are quickly becoming SO last year, maybe Disney kids will start publicly masturbating? Hey, it would do wonders for pent up teen angst, right?
Thanks Disney!
BEFORE DISNEY - PLAIN JANE: AFTER - MEET "CANDY":
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Wednesday, August 5, 2009
News!!!
I guess I'll add to the pot!
I don't want to go into tooo much detail (don't want to jinx it or whatever) but...a huge opportunity may have presented itself for me.
Backstory:
I wake up to my mom getting ready for her doctors' appointment yesterday. She is wearing her "Dartmouth Mom" shirt (which has what appears to be a slight bleach drop stain on it) and a pair of jeans- very casual. I thought it was too chill (bleach stain distracting...) and told her "You're wearing that? You sure you don't want to change?"... Glad she didnt!!!!! A guy stopped her in the hospital and inquired whether or not she had a child currently there. She told him my story and how I'm currently interested in law and he gave her some interesting news. He is a Dartmouth alum...class of '72. His ex-roommate (a very lucrative person in law/government here in Atl!) is running for Mayor of Atlanta!!! He gave my mom his contact information and told me to contact him so we could chat and he could find out about me and arrange some sort of meeting with him!
EEP! This could be HUGE!!!
Fixing my resume as we speak!!!
Pray/send good wishes for me!
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Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Back in my day...
So my oldest little cousin's 16th birthday is coming up. I have NO idea what to do for her or what she wants. So I ended up asking one of the TAs at work who is also 16. "So what do 16 year olds like these days?" DAMNIT I can't believe I had to ask that.
So what DO 16 year olds like? I mean, she's not old enough to enjoy the dranky dranks or the smokey smokes with me. She's too old to go on a Claire's shopping spree with her little sisters. I'm not ballin enough [read at all] to treat her to a day at the spa (mostly because the other girls and women would want to do it too). I don't like or know her friends to take then ALL out. SIIIGH what to do..what to do? BBQ at the beach? I dunno, I dunno. WHAT DO 16 YEAR OLDS LIKE?!?!
Damn. I'm gettin old. So, tell me, young people. What's hot? What's good? What's poppin'?
My special treat for my own 16th birthday was having MORE family out and taking up TWO tables at our usual Chinese restaurant. That's it. Good food. But it wasn't a big party or anything like some of my friends had (one. I was invited to one sweet 16.). Birthdays have generally been a family thing.
This year though, I hit the big two dozen. So I went a little wilder with one of my best friends who is also a July baby. We went to a drag show dinner with close friends and partied it up at lounges and clubs. I had my tiny tiara and sexy heels. I got a big dick pearl necklace balloon man. It was glorious.
The big quarter century party will be a big one, too, I hope!
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Paula Abdul Leaves American Idol
American Idol fans will have to live without one of the famous three judges who made the show the success it is today - Paula Abdul. After 8 seasons on the show, Paula has opted not to return for the 9th installment.
What I want to say most is how much I appreciate the undying support and enoormous love that you have showered upon me. It truly has been breathtaking, especially over the past month. I do without any doubt have the BEST fans in the entire world and I love you all.”
Give us Free! Give us FREE!...wait, no!
Monday, August 3, 2009
*Alert* New Strain of HIV Found!
"French researchers have identified a new human immunodeficiency virus, the first derived from gorillas, a report said Monday."
The other three strains (I had no idea there were three!!) were found in chimpanzee's.
"The new virus, called RBF 168, was detected in a 62-year-old woman who moved to Paris from the western Africa nation of Cameroon[...]The new gorilla virus "has many of the biological properties necessary for human infection[.]"
"The human case described here does not seem to be an isolated incident, as before coming to Paris the subject had lived in the semiurban area of Yaounde, the capital of Cameroon, and reported no contact with apes or bush meat[...] That would indicate that the woman contracted the virus from another human."
Forgive me for being ignorant on the subject (I hope to remain so in many respects...) but I thought that HIV was only contracted through the transmission of bodily fluids (i.e. saliva, blood, ejaculate). The subtle mention of bush meat scares me. Granted...I dont eat human flesh but you can contract HIV from eating cooked meat? Or is this a reference to eating raw bush meat? Someone help me out!
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Sunday, August 2, 2009
*Highlights* - Clay People Learn, Too
Fun Fact Friday! - US education expenditure and other countries' GDP from Education Gadfly on Vimeo.
So all this money has been pumped into education, where are the results???
The "Think About That" value:
Saturday, August 1, 2009
*Highlight* Boys Behaving Badly?
Another Flaming Shot Goes Bad - Watch more Funny Videos
Not how you do it....maybe the next guy...
Nope....10 points for blowing the fire out though...
No...and...Hell No....
Interesting approach...but no.
Step One: BLOW THE DAMN THING OUT.
5/5 for My personal enjoyment!
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Drake Re-Injures Leg at NJ Concert
I'm not one of the millions of teenage fans who jumped on the Drake bandwagon after 1-2 hits, but I can't deny the man's talent. Even so, I'm going to allow Drake to earn my respect/attention, before I start lauding him as the premier force in rap.