I Don't Wanna Be Right

"If Loving You is Wrong, I Don't Wanna be Right"

I may have other addictions, but let's keep it PG-13 for the kids... or should I?

When I wake up in the morning, the first thing I think about is "play time." It just makes me feel so good from the inside out.  I probably waste hours each day surfing the web, visiting the usual sites and searching for new ones.  I watch videos upon videos and have a hard time committing to one because I always think and hope the next one will be even more exciting.   When I do find what I want, it's play time for probably an hour or more.  

Sure, once I'm done "playing," I naturally take a break.  I'm like anyone else in that regard - too much of a good thing is a bad thing.  Eventually I just get tired, but give me an hour break, and I'll be back to "playing" again.  You'd think I'd be sore by now.  After all, the grip is sometimes too tight.

...

Yeah, the headphones grip my ears way too tight sometimes! Don't let me fall asleep "playing" music, or I'll wake up and my ears will be sore the entire day.  Man I love music.  Since discovering YouTube music/videos, my addiction has grown to new levels. Fortunately, my addiction is also classified as a passion, so no intervention needed.

Wait, what did you think I was talking about?!  

Be well, 

Read more...

What's Your Addiction? Is it Money? Is it Girls? Is it Weed?

Monday, April 26, 2004

I saw this poster that said "87% of students don't feel the need to drink in order to be socially accepted" and that's SO TRUE HERE. Most of us drink because we're fucking alcoholics.
Interestingly, I have the most amazing instinct when it comes to preserving alcohol. I could fall down a flight of stairs with an open bottle and not spill a drop.


Friday, May 28, 2004
I've decided to stop drinking since it's a bad habit to cultivate, and might also be loosely related to my recent loss of enthusiasm.

Monday, June 14, 2004
A note on alcohol. There is no drinking age. Bacardi can be acquired for 80 yuan. That's like 10 bucks. They sell like 5 gallon jugs of vodka for like 40 yuan. Thankfully I've sworn off alcohol or I would spend all my time here drinking.

Sunday, August 08, 2004
Yesterday, I ran into the culprits from my previous trip to XXXXXX. That night, like three weeks ago, we went bar hopping and did like 15 shots each. I remember that. I was fine! My tolerance is monstrous. Then we went to Club Look. I remember that. My last ememory is of dancing with XXXXX on the dance floor. She handed me some water, I took a gulp, then stepped off the dance floor to rest. aaaand thats where my memory stops. Apparently, what happenned next is I joined my friends at the bar, where they'd met some interesting people. Those people had bought a bottle of whiskey and offerred it to us. Apparently I drank some of that. My next memory is of waking up at the bar. and then lots of subsequent regurgitation. So there is the story of my first and only black out. And I'll never drink to anywhere near the point of drunkeness again.

Monday, August 30, 2004 10:38:40 AM
I have not mentioned, at all, our night of Xi’an debauchery. It was me, XXXXXX, XXXXXX with her sexy self, and XXXXXX. We wanted to go clubbing. We did. Three clubs. All kinda pricey alcohol. Very few people dancing. So XXXXXX and I came to the conclusion that we needed to be drunk. And so our adventure began. We ended up going to some random street stall, buying their cheapest baijiu and some Sprite for a chaser and then going into an alleyway in Xi-an and drinking the vilest alcohol we’ve ever had. Toasted and nauseous, we then made our way to the BMW bar. There, I had the most powerful White Russian ever made. Then we went clubbing again. It was pretty outrageous.

Monday, August 30, 2004 1:45:28 AM
After swearing that I’d never do it again, I’ve just, under the influence of XXXXXX, had the Devil’s Drink.

Sunday, September 12, 2004 11:48:16 PM
I never did a Devil’s Drink true aftermath report. I lay in bed just now and was stunned by the power of that drink. XXXXXX had one and was just chill for the rest of the night. For this, she is a goddess. XXXXXX drank heavily beforehand then, halfway through his first, became violently sick and couldn’t stop throwing up for the entire night. Thus he left without drinking the entire thing. He was lucky. Upon his first sip, XXXXXX threw up. In an empty beer jug. Then finished his drink. XXXXXX almost killed himself that night. He ran through a building site sure that he was being chased and almost jumped off of the top to escape his pursuers. XXXXXX drank heavily then had two Devils. XXXXXX hasn’t been able to learn characters since and is sure that that drink permanently altered his brain chemistry. He also really pissed off XXXXXX. He and XXXXXX ended the night chasing each other around XXXXXX campus and climbing flagpoles. I drank heavily then had two Devils. REDACTED. Oh. XXXXXX and I, in retrospect, realize that we could realistically have died from alcohol poisoning that night.

I have an addictive personality. I took up smoking for a few months at the age of 20 because it seemed like an unbearably cool thing to do. So let's go down the line of my addictions.

Food - we've already documented that I will at no point deny myself anything.

Liquor - I keep a constant 2 bottles on hand and that has at time fluctuated all of the way up to 5 bottles. My friends can confirm that I kept a fridge stocked with vodka, kahlua, Bailey's and MadDog during college. Morning, afternoon or night, I feel that not drinking because it's breakfast is specious logic. Have a 1 hour break during work? Get lightly sauced. It really breaks up the day. As far as I'm concerned, functional alcoholism isn't really alcoholism at all.

However, none of those things are really addictions since I can quit whenever I want. Read more...

ADDICTED...to you

LOL! How dramatic!

But I AM addicted to talking to people...ONLINE, that is. I mean sure, face to face conversations can last forever with me if I feel genuine about you. I have had plenty of long conversations with my friends. I'm not a big phone person only because people never sound all that clear through the phone. Too much "Wait what? What'd you say?" (Although I did have a seven hour phone call once.) I text a bunch though. But that's not really a PHONE phone thing. My MAIN mode of communication is through the INTERNET! IMing, emailing/blitzing, twittering, blogging and other messaging options like Facebook.



I spend HOURS everyday just chatting it up with people. People that are at work, people that are studying, people that are up in the wee hours of the night, etc. In fact, I used to pass out on my bed with my laptop in college. I felt it was necessary to get a desktop out of college just to avoid that. Also, Dell laptops (especially when they're plugged into college networks) are POS.

Do I do a lot on the internet though? Not really. I peruse my usual haunts: YouTube (I always have videos queued up), Facebook (I'm always signed on), various online comics, some celebrity gossip sites and IMDB, and sometimes I throw in some news sites. No doubt I'm always on The RGC. People always link me to one thing or another which can lead to one thing or another.

Sometimes I watch movies or shows online. Not all that often...only because they require my attention which will cause my IMing to slack..HAHAHA...it's that serious

I don't do online games though. I didn't grow up playing video games and I suck at RPGs or whatever. Fascinated by them, but I'm no good at them.

I don't know if it's really an addiction so much as I like it to just pass the time. I'm a night owl so going to sleep isn't really an option. I also don't really like sleep all that much. It's a necessity and feels great when I'm tired. But so does peeing when I've had a liter of water...doesn't mean I love peeing.

But the addiction kind of surfaces when I rather stay home when it's nice out or stay awake when I'm falling asleep and chat with people. HOURS!!!

I dunno...I'm not really addicted to anything else. I don't like sweets the way Southern Substance does. Like I said earlier, I don't game. I don't drink or drug it up to the point of addiction. I don't gamble. I don't watch porn or sex it up. I don't text all that much (although I did just up my plan to unlimited recently).

So yea, I'm not an addict of any kind!

Holla at me on the world wide web!

Read more...

A-D-D-I-C-T-I-O-N

Addiction [uh-dik-shuhn]: the desire to do/have/make/be something so much so that you will ignore other facets of your life to fulfill this urge, often causing yourself or those around you harm of some sort.


That’s my 9 am on a Friday definition anyway. Lol. How sad (or great) is it that I can’t think of anything I’m actually addicted to based on that definition? I play World of Warcraft pretty religiously…at least an hour (but usually 2 or 3) a day…but unlike most of the gamers that play… I can be enticed to leave the computer to go out clubbing, to dinner with friends, etc etc. There have been people who have DIED or have NEGLECTED their families for this and similar games. I’ll NEVER get to that level- that’s really sad. That’s sickening. That's ADDICTION.
--------------------------------------------
I guess that definition is a little strong but it's mine. If I were to use the more commonplace definition…then I’d be addicted to sweets and the internet…but really…who isn’t “addicted” to some type of food and some form of technology? You can’t help but to be in this day and age. I can remember back before fast internet…when my family had dial up and AOL…ew. I never would log on – I didn’t have the patience for it to load. There were five kids all wanting to use either of the two computers…we each got an hour a day. What’s the point? As soon as you get on…your time is practically up. I would have rather gone outside and played. Too bad I didn’t stick with that because now…I log on the net for hours and surf pages and play WoW. I watch movies online, listen to music/watch music videos, do research, study for LSAT, EVERYTHING. I even surf random/funny websites (and the RGC of course!) at work sometimes (which is BAD!!!)…I need to stop that.

And sweets?? Mmm…I have always loved candy and baked goods. I have chased the ice cream man many a time…As a matter of fact…I got a nutty buddy yesterday!! LOL *Shame*. I pretended I had a kid back at home though so I think the kids were a little more patient (and yes I cut in line!) lol. My favorite thing is CHOCOLATE. Yum! Fudge, White Chocolate, Dark Chocolate, Milk Chocolate....*Wipes Chin*...YUM!!! As much as I love chocolate...I'm open to anything with an inkling of sugar. There's very few sweets that I don't like!
-------------------------------------------------------------

HAPPY FRIDAY!!! Get off that computer and DO SOMETHING THIS WEEKEND!!!! Read more...

I DO wanna be the Biggest Loser!

Tuesday, August 03, 2004
So, I'll start smoking tommorrow. Purely as a hobby. and to look cool. If there are any kids reading this, don't listen to your parents. Smoking really does make you cool. Cooler than you could ever hope to be right now.

So my girlfriend and I recently decided to revamp our lifestyles, because she became increasingly worried that I'd keel over and die in my early 30s before earning enough for her to remarry for love instead of money. We changed our eating habits and started going to the gym religiously. She's lost more than 15 pounds. I... haven't.

Like I'd love to lose weight but I've never had the heart to deny myself anything. During my diet some of my more frequent transgressions involve regularly ordering multiple burritos while she's at work, preparing a 6/2 split of burgers for myself and her respectively, and eating entire bags of chips at a time with the defense that pico de gallo is healthier than regular salsa. These things happen on the regular. They're not even the exceptions like me having multiple Cinnabons for breakfast when I was running late for a flight out of Washington.

It's not all bad. I'm eating more greens than I did before. In fact I'm eating an infinite amount more greens since before I'd eaten like 0 salads in my entire life. Infinity times 0 is 0 so the math is a little skeevy but you get my point . I'm pretty good about the gym too despite it being an extremely boring time. You get addicted to the adrenaline rush but there is nothing more dreary than the moment you get on a treadmill and realize you're stuck there for 40 minutes. It wasn't so bad when I could just run behind my girlfriend and watch her butt bounce during her workout but she's become increasingly adept at finding machines where I can't ogle her and the other girls at the gym either have no butts at all or it's like watching puppies wrestling under a blanket.
Read more...

When I'm Gone

How many people will miss me when I’m gone?



I have always had a morbid way of thinking- even as a small child. When you would see a funeral scene in a movie and a community coming together to make their peace with a character…I always wondered what my funeral would be like. Part of this was spurred on by my constant moving from place to place due to the military, and never settling down at any point. Frivolous friendships that I knew would only last for a year or so....I went to five high schools…imagine what my childhood was like….

I had never dealt with death face to face really…a snippet here and there…a pet dying…but never a person that I was extremely close to. Maybe I’m lucky that I’m estranged with most of my family. No hard feelings- we’re just not that close due to me moving around so much. These thoughts became more vivid when one of my friends in college was shot and killed while volunteering in her hometown. I had never dealt with the death of a close friend so this was hard for me. After grieving and hurting for a while…all I could think was…would anyone notice or care if I died? Look at all these people here for her…it should have been me instead! I have made no impact…no one even knows who I am. Of course this is not entirely true; I have close friends and family members that love me but I have not made an impact on hundreds (possibly thousands) like she did. I never stayed in one place long enough to…my neighbors never even know who I am…

These thoughts are selfish but…realistic. I know I’m not the only one who wonders what will be said in their eulogy or how many people will show up to their funeral. Wonders what impact it will have on your friends and family…if any. All I can do is try to be a better person and hope that I make a positive impact on someone…

Here’s to being a Good Person!


Read more...

MOOBS

LOL

Ok since this week's schedule seems to be a little out of wack with Memorial Day and all so forget a real entry...I'm going to just throw in a little something for all you MALE SOY LOVERS out there...

Do you see the title of this entry? YEAP

BEWARE OF ITS SIDE EFFECTS!!!

(Don't get me wrong...I love Asian tofu and most other soy products...yuck to soy drink/milk though)

Enjoy...

Remember: EVERY thing in moderation...

Read more...

Job Update - My Excitement & Worries

Hey all,

I hope you had a great Memorial Day Weekend. As if blogging on this site isn't enough, my application to become an "Examiner," a subject-specific columnist for the Examiner.com, was accepted on Saturday! This means, I have a job!...wait...a freelance position where I earn money based on the number of readers who view my page. Hmmm....this is sounding less like a job and more like a side venture. Yep, I'm still calling myself unemployed... *sigh*

Even though I still don't have a steady salary through Examiner.com, the offer is exciting because it will allow me to gain a great deal of column writing experience and broaden my readership! My profile on Examiner.com will link back to TheRGC (here), so the additional exposure should be very good for this blog. I've been commissioned to write articles on the young adult experience and youth academic/program exploits in my local area. Of course, i can and WILL write more generally; I'm hopeful that I will find some success with this new position and receive some MUCH needed money SOON.

I'll let you guys know a bit more of the details about my "job" in next Monday's entry. The Examiner.com position will definitely entail a lot of writing, but fortunately I've rediscovered my appreciation for the art.

So to put EVERYTHING in perspective for YOU (and remind myself) on JUST HOW FLAKY my existence is right now...

1. Working on my music demo (singer/songwriter) - nearly done
2. Writing for TheRGC.blogspot.com - my pride and joy
3. Volunteering on 2 youth programming boards for a non-profit organization - Soul satisfying
4. Appointed and actively "working"(pro bono of course) on a government committee that oversees the state's Juvenile Justice system - mentally stimulating, soul satisfying
5. Living at home with the family still - Accustomed
6. Very quickly approaching broke...that savings account is feeling the pressure - BIG STRESSER

Yes, my life is almost thrilling at the moment, but where's the stability? I'm actually considering applying for another volunteer position tomorrow - helping some people with a political campaign. I'll also be attending two career fairs later this week - Wednesday and Thursday.

Oh goodness, it just hit me! My situation just hit me!
MAKE IT STOP! There's got to be a way for me to get rich off of my present existence. I know I'm developing a ton of skills and experience for my next real job. Additionally, I will have great stories to tell my kids and grandchildren. After all, my "20-something years" have been quite adventurous and tumultuous thus far.

On a serious note: I desperately need something mildly lucrative and stable to at least EMERGE this week. Please pray for me. Let me know your story, if you want me to send you some positive energy and/or prayer.

*Currently listening to Erykah Badu's "Otherside of the Game" and hearing this lyric repeat over and over: "Work ain't honest but it pays the bills." Maybe I'll start evaluating my illegal employment options, haha.

Stay Positive
Be well, Read more...

*Highlights* - RuPaul's Drag Race - Season 2 Winner?!

A "loose" Drag Queen was spotted on a New York subway earlier this month. Although this particular "Queen" was not involved in any visible competition at the moment, it is still clear that "she" was in her zone and ready to entertain. From her FIERCE walk to her EXPERT POLE HANDLING, we may have actually found RuPaul's Drag Race Season 2 winner! What's more, if this Queen does audition and make the show, it will TRULY, TRULY be a rags to riches fairytale.

Watch this short clip of the future winner seemingly in her "natural" element.  Enjoy the video. It may get you as high as "she" was!


Subway doors may need upgrading if this Queen continues performing her routine for NY's underground commuters.

This Drag Routine gets 4 stars, but only because of the ashy knees:

Read more...

*Highlights* - Lorena Bobbitt Anyone?

Man's penis accidentally bitten off by lover...........

that's all I have to say about that...
---------------------------------------------

A boss and his secretary who were having an affair saw their romantic tryst interrupted in a wince-inducing manner - after a car crash led her to accidentally bite his penis off.

According to reports in China Press and Sin Chew Daily, the 30-year-old woman was performing oral sex on her boss in a car in a Singapore park, when the car was struck by a reversing van.

The impact caused her to bite the man's penis off.

Read the Story Here!

-----------------------------------------------------------------

Lmao

5/5 Nutritional Value!


Read more...

*Highlights* - Michelle O. You're still awesome

GOTHAM DAYS says:

Aiight aiight. So she's no Jackie O. in the face. But she's great on a real level.

On a superficial level, she supports my Asian designers. WOOH!!! or...WU! JASON! hahaha



and LOOK at those GUNS!!! (First) Lady has some nice arms

and then THIS fool...with his WACK jabs at Michelle...

weak.




THEN I come to find out his wife...sexy Nikki Cox...dun busted up her face...(bring it back to '95) BUSTED!



WHAT. HAPPENED?!?!?!?! OUCH

The smart mouthed sexy girl turned into the botox'd up girl who looks dumb crazed. SMH

Hypocrites are loved this much:

Read more...