V Card - Intact...Enough

You can still make out my name on it. Cool.

What IS it with guys and obsessing over a girl's virginity? It's not even that special to ME. I don't fantasize about the first time with the man I love. I don't guard it with my life. I definitely don't think it's something SPECIAL you give away. It's not a GIFT. For those that think it's a gift?! Sorry, but no. A bloodied dick is not a gift.

I asked someone once "Why do guys keep asking me if I'm a virgin?" His answer was "Some virgins are just aloof." I think he meant aloof about the sex thing. In other words, I'm not THIRSTY. I'm not FIENDING to F. Don't get me wrong. I have my moments when I'm like OOO Shiet I wanna have some FUN. But I'm never starved or hungry for some meat.

What does my virginity mean to guys? Some might think of me as fresh meat. Some might think it's a conquest to take it from me (again, take what? smh). Some might just keep it moving because where's the fun in having sex with someone that's inexperienced? Some might not even care but the thought crossed their minds so they asked. (There goes that damn virgin vibe.) I'm sure there is a plethora of reactions and reasons to why they ask about it.
Fellas, let me know what a girl's virginity means to you and why you want to know.

Yea. 23. Virgin. Honestly. It doesn't matter to me. I'm sure sex is great. No, I'm not waiting until I get married. I already said I'm not looking for someone special to give my virginity to. It is what it is.

Three things that cross my mind when I think about sex:
1. STDs. I already told y'a how those things GROSS me the F out..and I'm not gonna catch a case of the babydaddy drama
2. A good friend of mine said "Think about who you lose it to. You only lose it once." I mean, yea. I don't particularly care about losing it. But I do care about who I have sex with.
3. I'm loyal to someone. Are we an item? No. I don't even know where we're at right now. But that's just the person I am. I am loyal to my friends and emotionally invested in them. My heart is in 100%. So no, I'm not finna go club and bang. None of that putting emotions on hold and then doing the "BONG! bop" (hop on, hop off) and going back to being me in the daytime.

It's not like I'm ugly. I got boobs. I got a booty. It's not like I've never been approached about sex. But I don't do sex hook-ups. Especially not one-night stands. DEFINITELY not with someone who is already in a relationship. I don't play games. Too many guys just wanna play grown games and then act like a damn baby about it when I don't wanna play with them. I don't like that. Man up. Holla when you got your head right about who I am. I'm no ho. Don't treat me like one. Don't spit ya wack game and expect me to be impressed. BE REAL. That's wassup. Unfortuantely, that's rare. So my challenge to you men out there, be different.

I've done some stuff. But you know what? It's not satisfying when at the end of the night, it amounts to nothing. I get attached. So hookin' up. Not my thing. But I live and learn and move on. It's not a big deal. Broken heart. It's a fact of life. I lived through it and I'm a stronger person for it. No experience is without merit if you make it worthwhile to have gone through it.

I've made my choices. This is me. 23. Virgin. Nice to meet you.